I’m not exactly feeling very good right now

I don’t know what got into me actually.

Feeling really, heavy-hearted and troubled right now.

*After staring at this space for 3 minutes (though it feels like forever) I still don’t know how to express my thoughts*

It’s the same old lousy feeling.

That same old I-want-to-say-it-but-can’t feeling.

That same old … crap.

Seriously feeling like some crap right now.

Argh. Shall drown myself in music later.

The following song has no meaning to the above. Don’t make wild inferences. Or guesses.

Whatever.

So close so far – Hoobastank

I wake up all alone, somewhere unfamiliar.
Been gone so many days, Im losing count.
When I think of home, I see your face.
I know I have to wait

(Chorus)
So close, yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

I miss hearing your laughter
And all the little things
Forgotten what its like to hold you
Cause where I am right now so unforgiving
Its numbing everything

So close, yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

So promise
No matter how long it takes for me to get back to you
Youll wait for me.

I Promise
No matter how far away I go Ill come back for you
Just wait and see

I miss being at home
I miss your face
Dont think I can wait…

Were So close, yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

I promise,
Its tearing me apart
No matter how far away I go Ill come back for you
I promise
Its tearing me apart
What I would do-
What I would do-
What I would do to be there with you

happy birthday joycelin! heal the world~

My birthday is on the same day as Michael Jackson’s death anniversary.

 

Well, here’s a song from MJ which I like a lot.
Mr Chan taight the entire 3J this song during music lesson.

Enjoy.

 

HEAL THE WORLD – MICHAEL JACKSON

There’s A Place In
Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could
Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You’ll Find There’s No Need
To Cry
In This Place You’ll Feel
There’s No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways
To Get There
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better Place…

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There’s A Love That
Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For
Joyful Giving
If We Try
We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And
Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love’s Enough For
Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World…

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were
Conceived In
Will Reveal A Joyful Face
And The World We
Once Believed In
Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep
Strangling Life
Wound This Earth
Crucify Its Soul
Though It’s Plain To See
This World Is Heavenly
Be God’s Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart
I Feel You Are All
My Brothers
Create A World With
No Fear
Together We’ll Cry
Happy Tears
See The Nations Turn
Their Swords
Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
To Make A Better Place…

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me

 

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Sigh why my birthday post so sad one -.-

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Anyway!

TODAY’S MY BIRTHDAY WOOHOOO I’M 16 AND I FEEL OLD! :O

Thanks to every single one who either smsed, im-ed me on MSN or wished me happy birthday in person!!

Really made my day!! WOOOHOOO~

My day today was spent with:

1. Liqin in the morning at Vivo’s starbucks where we talked quite abit and she gave me like, THE BEST PRESENT I COULD EVER ASK FOR

HAHAHAHA no lah no lah Liqin, I was kidding (you know what I’m talking about~) BUT ANYWAY THANKS FOR THE SCRAPBOOK!
I’m really very touched.
Just that never cry only.

2. Xinmun and Gayle at Gayle’s hometown, HOLLAND V.
Ate lunch, talked, walked around Holland V and ate ice cream at Cold Rock!
Woohoooo it was a treat! THANK YOU TWO~~

That time I ate it in Aussie was better though, I think cos the weather there was a lot less cooler.
I brought it back to the hostel it still didn’t melt o.o

But the one I ate today, once I got it from the man, it melted :/

3. People who couldn’t think of a name but chose this one aka my ACE camp group mates.
Hahahaha we had meeting at Midpoint Orchard (which was really hard to find btw), which was kinda SAD cos it’s my birthday! :O

But it’s alright since meeting was quite funny! And Clement (Wee)’s magic trick is a scam really.

Though I thought it was cool initially.

Oh and VERON! I LIKE YOUR GIFT~~ THANK YOU HAHAHAHA.
I was reading what you wrote and kept smiling to myself on the MRT train -.-

Oh oh and Pris! Thanks for that gift too!
Don’t be too stressed out with everything okay~~ The order of the people who couldn’t think of a name but chose this one will be supporting you always!
4. My parents! For a really late dinner outside.
Omg felt really bad for making them wait like super duper long~
But at least we had the dinner.

Yesterday I felt worst when I told them I cannot go for the dinner :/
ALRIGHT AND MY BIRTHDAY ENDED LIKE THIS!
A happy journey starts like that~

 

Didn’t really take many pictures except for those with Liqin! But I don’t think I’ll post them up cos I’m tiredddddddd.

 

Alright goodnight world.

Tomorrow will be a long day again. (Shoots I don’t have time to do homework at all.)

and you lost all sense of control

21 Guns – Green Day

Do you know what’s worth fighting for
When it’s not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You’re in ruins…

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

When you’re at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn’t pass
Nothing’s ever built to last
You’re in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it’s time to live and let die
And you can’t get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You’re in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

 

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Actually I don’t exactly get the song, doesn’t relate to the current feelings of mine right now.

But it sounds like a perfect piece of song for me to emo to.

Just like Boulevard of Broken Dreams~ “I walk a lonely road~”
Sigh.

back to school yo

First day of school was a waste of time.

 

The parade went on fine I suppose.

 

C’mon Sec 1s JOIN RVNCC (!!)

 

You know we’re the best

 

Camwhored(as usual) after the parade.

Only NCC was left on the track where every other UG members went to change already :/

 

Liqin sms me when you see this please! I want steal your pictures~~

 

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Went back to class right after changing cos you know who my chinese teacher is.

But woohooo she wasn’t in the class!

 

Miss Faith Goh’s our new form teacher.

Had this self-introduction thing which was hilarious.

Miss Goh: Okay tell me your name, something interesting about you and your new year resolution.

Aaron: I’m Aaron. I’m Aaron. I’m Aaron. (started laughing on his own -.-)
I don’t like running.

Okay spot the irony. He doesn’t like running, but he’s in Athletics.

Aaron: I like to see hot ……DOGs.

-.-

 

Our class’s like SPCA.

People kept saying which kind of animals they like when it was their turn.

 

The rest of the day was boring~

Some of us went out to play teambuilding games organised by the SC.

Quite lame but it’s still better than staying in the class :/

I thought that it would be better if these games could involve the whole class instead of only a few people cos apparently the instructions were
“I need 15 people from the class, mixed. You all can go to the canteen and play any games to earn coupons blah blah blah….”

Zzzz.

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For you, my friend.

 

Break even – The Script

 

I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in
Coz I got time while she got freedom
Coz when a heart breaks no it don’t break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that’s gonna put her first
While I’m wide awake she’s no trouble sleeping
Coz when a heart breaks no it don’t break even, even no

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
What am I suppose to say when I’m all choked up and you’re OK?
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop me bleeding
Coz she’s moved on while I’m still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it dont break even, even, no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
What am I suppose to say when I’m all choked up and you’re OK?
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces
I’m falling to pieces

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I’m trying to make sense of what little remains
Coz you left with no love, with no love to my name

I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in
Coz I got time while she got freedom
Coz when a heart breaks no it don’t break even
No it don’t break, no it dont break even, no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
What am I suppose to say when I’m all choked up and you’re OK?
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces
I’m falling to pieces

Oh, it don’t break even, no
Oh, it don’t break even, no
Oh, it don’t break even, no

 

 

 

Never too late

 

Never too late – 3 Days Grace

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don’t belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it’s not too late
It’s never too late

Even if I say
It’ll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we’ll turn it all around
‘Cause it’s not too late
It’s never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there’s something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It’s not too late
It’s never too late

Even if I say
It’ll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we’ll turn it all around
‘Cause it’s not too late
It’s never too late

The world we knew
Won’t come back
The time we’ve lost
Can’t get back
The life we had
Won’t be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don’t belong

Even if I say
It’ll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we’ll turn it all around
‘Cause it’s not too late
It’s never too late
Maybe we’ll turn it all around
‘Cause it’s not too late
It’s never too late (It’s never too late)
It’s not too late
It’s never too late

passionfruit green tea

I wanted it so badly.

I was thinking about it ever since Geography lesson where Mr Chan was teaching about “ATTACK RETREAT ATTACK RETREAT!”

I swear I couldn’t get it off my mind during my whole 1 hour trip on the bus.

Even when I was sleeping I was dreaming about it.

 

I got off the bus.

That was when I felt something was amiss.

These two men in white were ahead of me. They were walking the same route as me!

No they can’t be! :O

I chose not to believe what I was seeing and continued walking towards it, hoping to get it savour it as soon as possible.

 

 

And then the most dreaded moment occured.

 

 

 

 

 

MEN IN WHITE STOPPED RIGHT IN FRONT OF SWEET TALK! D:

 

 

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (!!)

 

That was when I walked away, bidding goodbye to my beloved passionfruit green tea with double pearl.

 

 

 

I HATE QUEUES.

 

 

*****

I can’t believe those workers that I see working their lungs out every single day under my block is actually

 

building a concrete pathway.

 

Zzz.

What amazed me most was they built it on that patch of land where young trees used to grow.

 

So much for Global Warming huh?

 

*****

Got back SS and Math papers today.

Rather dissapointed with myself ):

But I would be happy if I can manage to scrape at least a GPA of 2.0.

 

 

 

 

 

Pardon me, I was just trying to deceive myself.

 

*****

 

We the Kings – Check Yes Juliet

 

I just like the song.

The lead singer looks horrible with his mop hair.

you’re right

The truth is always the right thing.

Yeah, whoever who commented on my previous post,

THANKS.

She brought you up, remember that.

 

It was all said out of anger.

And I was prolly in a bad mood since it was late at night.

Ah, maybe that served as a call for me to sleep earlier

 

Anyway, whoever that commented as TRUTH,

next time leave your name there please,
since you’re in DIV I I should know who you are.

And isn’t it 世上只有妈妈好

not 世界只有妈妈好?

(HAHAHAH)

 

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I can relate with this song completely right now.

 

 

“I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own”

“ I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy ’s eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
“Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!”
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me “

“It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn’t believe what I’d become
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh, who would ever want to be king? “

 

*****

Just a had a giant row with my mum (again).

I end up tearing like mad.

Guess she never knew me all along.