I’m not exactly feeling very good right now

I don’t know what got into me actually.

Feeling really, heavy-hearted and troubled right now.

*After staring at this space for 3 minutes (though it feels like forever) I still don’t know how to express my thoughts*

It’s the same old lousy feeling.

That same old I-want-to-say-it-but-can’t feeling.

That same old … crap.

Seriously feeling like some crap right now.

Argh. Shall drown myself in music later.

The following song has no meaning to the above. Don’t make wild inferences. Or guesses.

Whatever.

So close so far – Hoobastank

I wake up all alone, somewhere unfamiliar.
Been gone so many days, Im losing count.
When I think of home, I see your face.
I know I have to wait

(Chorus)
So close, yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

I miss hearing your laughter
And all the little things
Forgotten what its like to hold you
Cause where I am right now so unforgiving
Its numbing everything

So close, yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

So promise
No matter how long it takes for me to get back to you
Youll wait for me.

I Promise
No matter how far away I go Ill come back for you
Just wait and see

I miss being at home
I miss your face
Dont think I can wait…

Were So close, yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
Its tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

I promise,
Its tearing me apart
No matter how far away I go Ill come back for you
I promise
Its tearing me apart
What I would do-
What I would do-
What I would do to be there with you