tomorrow’s the day!
hello hello i’m not emo already 
i’m a happy girl now.
thanks to everyone who listened to me and gave me advice yeah?
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CHARLIE COMPANY!
JIAYOU AND GOOD LUCK FOR TMRW’S ACTIVITY AND TMRW NIGHT OKAY!
we can do it.
we must never let these past few week’s hard work go down the drain.
let’s all work together and put up the best night for our seniors
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suck it, the cca leaders have to go for investiture rehearsal (LIKE !!! WHY MUST IT BE TMRW)
okay never mind
i’m peaceful now.
though still rather busy cos right after tomorrow’s rod night,
i’d be staying overnight in school.
then saturday morning got interact installation!
right i felt really guilty for not joining my excos to prepare for installation.
haven’t really been doing much D:
SORRY EVERYONE! D:
after installation have to go DBS arts centre to watch animal farm (GO ALVIN!).
see so hectic i’m a busy woman.
but i like the feeling of being busy though,
provided i don’t get shit.
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this is life
no one understands
when i’m going through all these smelly shit,
just how many people can see it?
just how many totally understands and see things from my perspective?
ZERO.
i feel so damn lost.
just when i thought i had changed for the better,
people tell me i suck (in a way).
and if you know me well enough,
you should know i get rather affected at how people think of me.
cos i don’t want people to hate me.
i hate the feeling of people badmouthing about you (who doesn’t zzz).
i always take in all kinds of shit thrown to me (tell me how many times i’ve rejected your requests).
when i’m being too nice,
i become a pushover.
when i’m trying to be assertive,
people tell me i’m rude.
this job is not easy at all, i finally understands how she felt.
you want to do something,
but you’re afraid the people you’re closest to will oppose your ideas.
THEN YOU’D BE HATED.
and then you realise,
you have no support to lean on,
just at that point of time when you need them the most.
you thought that you had many,
but no you’re wrong.
everyone’s just
GONE.
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this is exactly the feeling i’m having now.
and the shit is still piling up.
if i realise all these is just a pretence,
i’d kill myself.
i’m serious.
ps. pardon me for emo posts. i don’t like them either.
i’m desperate already
motherearthscreams.wordpress.com
please please pretty please (with a cherry on top) VISIT THIS BLOG.
and comment if you are nice enough.
WE NEED PEOPLE TO VIEW THE BLOG AND GIVE US COMMENTS!
if it hits 100, i will treat you all to a bowl of tauhuey.
just tell me your name
know me better
whenever you see me sitting on the ground, staring straight into nowhere and not talking,
you should know something is wrong with me.
either i’m too tired,
or i’m thinking about something.
i think a lot.
i think about things that happened, words people say to me, and things i did to other people.
i can turn into a 100% introvert when i’m in that thinking mode.
scary, yes.
i get hurt rather easily.
i may seem strong on the outside,
but deep down i’m so vulnerable my heart bleeds.
i care,
i care about everything people say to me.
i can’t ignore. i’ve got sensitive ears.
and because i care,
i often reflect on my own actions too.
i sometimes hate myself for doing things,
or saying hurtful stuff.
i wish i could take all of them back.
i should realise that out there
deep inside everyone,
lies a vulnerable heart.
no matter how strong she looks,
she’s weak on the inside.
i should care more about how other people feel,
i shouldn’t be insensitive.
and that applies to everyone out there.
think about your words,
you never know if you’re hurting someone.
*****
never expect things to happen
cos things that are expected to happen don’t happen.
you are what makes it happen.
never assume everything would go your way.
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this is not an emo post.
i know i sound like an old hag nagging those above sentences,
but i make sense don’t i?
i know your love is just a lie
hi that’s joycelin, shirleen’s twin.
i’m not joycelin.
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anyway, i got physics assignment 9 to complete,
plus chinese comprehension.
sucker.
we got obs also give us homework zzz.
teachers have never spared a thought for us.
somemore i can’t get out of my house now cos my ma is mopping the floor. zzz
I WANT TO CUT MY FRINGE LAH.
i hate long bangs, damn irritating.
and i can’t believe it’s back to school tomorrow.
shall pretend i’m sick.
i want to be a rockstar
where can i go for a nice body massage?
my back is aching like crap.
raise hands also pain.
somemore today went for rod dance practice at qianhui’s house.
i smsed vale and told her,
i’m so not kidding D:
but i was glad i learnt almost half the dance already woohoo
yay me i’m a pro.
LOOK AT MY HAIR! -.- (and my huge pimple zzz)
the other time shirleen did some funny thing to my hair,
and now it’s qianhui! D:
all gang up on me ):
I TMRW GO CUT HAIR ALREADY LAH! (hah then u all cannot tie and play with my hair )
the 2 idiots.
they were trying to bend their mouths hahahaha.
another picture to show you why anise is idiotic
HAHAHA OKAY I WAS JUST JOKING PLEASE DON’T KILL ME SHIRLEEN AND ANISE (and many guys out there :O)
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just received the contacts from xiaoxi
and kennard is a freaking egoistic guy.
gosh i have never seen someone like him before (not because he’s too shuai)!
Charlie Cannibals! said: were u trying to draw your face? your dp LOL
[c=11][b]kennard! ;D[/b][/c] -[c=46]&[/c][c=9]that makes u love me even more ;O[/c] says: LOL im more shuai!
[c=11][b]kennard! ;D[/b][/c] -[c=46]&[/c][c=9]that makes u love me even more ;O[/c] says: and the face is a work of art kay
© Charlie Cannibals! says: !!!
© Charlie Cannibals! says: wah so artistic
© Charlie Cannibals! says: LOL
© Charlie Cannibals! says: you draw one ah?
[c=11][b]kennard! ;D[/b][/c] -[c=46]&[/c][c=9]that makes u love me even more ;O[/c] says: ya
[c=11][b]kennard! ;D[/b][/c] -[c=46]&[/c][c=9]that makes u love me even more ;O[/c] says: lol is some famous artist draw de
[c=11][b]kennard! ;D[/b][/c] -[c=46]&[/c][c=9]that makes u love me even more ;O[/c] says: and got feature inside a super good de museum
[c=11][b]kennard! ;D[/b][/c] -[c=46]&[/c][c=9]that makes u love me even more ;O[/c] says:i think the famous artist is called kennard or sth
[c=11][b]kennard! ;D[/b][/c] -[c=46]&[/c][c=9]that makes u love me even more ;O[/c] says:he damn shuai
Charlie Cannibals! says:what the -.-
© Charlie Cannibals! says:god you’re like the most ego guy i’ve ever seen LOL
[c=11][b]kennard! ;D[/b][/c] -[c=46]&[/c][c=9]that makes u love me even more ;O[/c] says: &that makes you love me even more ;O
freaking ego right! walau eh.
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okay i shall be a good girl and go do my homework now.
but on second thoughts,
it’s already 10.45pm.
i should go sleep and wake up at 4.30am.
just like obs
hahahaha okay going swimming tmrw morning :D at 8am,
who wants to go? heh.
da gama!
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DA GAMA WATCH!
we are like the coolest bunch of people.
first day:
guys and girls were separated.
guys were selfish and left us to cook dinner while they went to bathe.
girls were damn pissed off and decided to finish the good food for ourselves and leave only rice and anchovies and a can of luo han zhai for the guys.
last day:
everyone helped to clean up the store, pack our bags, did our tree
no one grumbled, no one complained.
it was that sense of belonging to da gama.
*****
OBS really tested most of our perseverance and determination.
most of us had never kayaked for more than 5 hours straight before.
most of us had never trekked with a horribly heavy backpack that weighs a ton (literally. my shoulders were breaking.)
we were so high after the land expedition
everyone was cheering for the person that found each checkpoint.
and we kept thanking them (for saving our lives LOL).
the best thing about our watch is,
we evolved from a totally splitted group to a group that eats together, fools around and constantly laughing at each other’s jokes
the guys are complete jokers.
never mind about missing some of the activities,
what matters most are the friendships forged.
hopefully all of us will say hi to each other whenever we see each other in school
*XIAOXI! HURRY ADD ME ON MSN! I WANT DA GAMA’S CONTACTS!
i won’t be sharing the activities with you on my blog.
i know it will probably bore you to sleep.
all i can say is,
1. i learnt a lot through obs.
2. i enjoyed the company of everyone in my watch.
3. NAF (my instructor!) RAWKS.
4. i want to go obs again!
5. when can we go for a watch bbq at your house xiaoxi?
i shall write all the things that happened in my notebook tomorrow.
i learnt how to cherish everything around me after this course.
super shaggged now, time to sleep.
god please don’t let me forget everything tomorrow.
baby wink at it
OBS!
second time to say bye to civilization.
5 DAYS AND I’LL BE BACK.
can’t wait for obs wooohooooooo!
very tempted to
damn i’m like forever feeling very tired and sleepy.
(shirleen xie, cats are cute okay! SEEEEEE
whoo let’s go adopt cats at SPCA!)
and i’m longing for an ice cream cone now ):
*runs out to get one*
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right, i don’t exactly feel guilty for eating that cone of chocolate ice cream.
even though i’m fat enough.
like !!!!
never mind
obs should be a good time for me to lose weight
i doubt i’d be eating a lot,
cos i won’t have the chance to shit.
(and i don’t want to shit in holes)
and if i eat alot, i’ll constipate D:
gross, i can’t stand all the dirty shit stuck in my body.
guess what,
i’m listening to steven lim on youtube now HAHAHA.
“YOU SUCKS XIAXUE, YOU’RE A BIG CHIKEN PIE LOR!”
LOL WHAT THE.
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had rod dance at qianhui’s house today
suck it i had to leave after 3 hours (!)
i wonder if any of them took a video of the dance down.
then i can practice at home.
i’m rather hopeless at dancing in case you don’t know.
i swear qianhui wanted to stab me when she was teaching me the chorus :/
if i can dance like her,
i will treat you one hundred bowls of tauhuay from school.
both of them were trying to compare their eye size.
WALAU BOTH VERY BIG LAH MINE SMALLEST CAN. HAPPY?
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and then i left ):
to meet gayle to go changi jetty!
we had to interview people for our project lah can.
but never mind, we managed to talk to the boatman!
cooliox. he worked there for 30 years already.
(damn i forgot to ask how much he earns every month!)
we left after a while though,
cos we wanted to go bitch beach road to get stuff for obs(!)
on the way there
saw this freaking cute little girl on the train
she smiled at me and gayle! whooooo
anyway geylang is a pretty interesting place.
saw so many whores down there.
(but didn’t get to snap a picture, bus moved too fast you see)
next time i shall go pretend to makan at geylang and then go take pictures of those women.
tsk they’re such a disgrace to the female race.
this is a hotel which looks like a hdb flat.
so low class.
nvm just nice for low class bitches.
yes geylang has many blind people.
that’s why so many go look for those low class whores.
(angmoh ones are so much hotter HAHAHA)
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beach road sells all the cheap stuff.
track pants only 8 bucks for one.
and so much comfier than the $14.90 one at queensway.
and long sleeves one for 5 bucks heh heh.
(should have bought one more. jiamin said need 2 cos kayaking 2 days! zzz)
crap i wanted to tan my legs over at pulau ubin.
now cannot already.
cos everyday wear track pants ):
sigh.
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i saw this on youtube (who posted it? ) !
“you had faith in us. we definitely would not disappoint you when you come back to visit us.”
“thank you for having faith in us though we keep dissapointing you all.”
“bravo will miss you guys.”
“do come back often to see how much we have improved.”
“thank you for all the encouraging words and making us who we are. we love you all and we’ll make you all proud.”
“alpha 06 loved you, bravo 07 loves you and charlie 08 will love you”
“all the faith that you had in us is really what made us today”
“thank you for everything”
“we appreciate all you have done for us”
“we will always remember the fun and laughter you all gave us”
“we hope that you all would enjoy the performance tonight so sit back and relax” (walau so anti climax LOL)
“we’ll miss you”
“so visit us often okay”
“don’t really know what to say lah, but i love you all lah”
“do well in your o levels”
ALL THESE,
were in bravo.
NOW?
in a rush to throw you away
end of a week.
phew finally.
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i was in a perfectly happy mood
before i came to my blog and checked my tagboard.
mingjun: omg man a god damn disgustin girl n some1 called her cute??blind or eye dysfuntion?shld change tis blog name to disgustingirl.blogspot.com
hi mingjun,
do i know you personally?
if i don’t please fuck off.
(if you are THE mingjun)
okay i don’t mind you saying i’m disgusting,
since different people has different opinions.
but wait,
which part of me do i look disgusting?
i don’t even think you know me (!)
if you’re just a reader of my blog,
WHICH PART OF MY POST IS DISGUSTING YOU TELL ME.
I DON’T BLOG ABOUT SEX I DON’T BLOG ABOUT CONTROVERSIAL TOPICS I DON’T BLOG LIKE XIAXUE (even thought i don’t find her disgusting) I’M NOT AN EGO COOKIE AT ALL
YOU TELL ME WHICH PART OF ME IS DISGUSTING.
never mind, i’m supposed to be a happy little girl today.
hi mingjun (or someone who decided to use mingjun’s name),
please explain your tag on my tagboard.
thank you.
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crap i’m so so so tired.
OBS IS NEXT WEEK WOOHOOOOOOO
can’t wait can’t wait can’t wait.
i’d probably be as red as a tomato when i come back.
cos i’d be sunburn from head to toe during the 5 days.
i can even get sunburnt after doing frisbee duty at cross country zzz.
i think i’ll get skin cancer.
